Saturday, May 21, 2011

Shocking

I know that this comes as a huge surprise to those that know me ...but honestly.  I don't have what it takes to be pregnant with a subchorionic hemorrhage.  Seriously.  This is rough. 

Everything had been mostly okay for about a week.  I went to buy flowers this morning with baby A2.  Not thinking, I picked up a hanging basket to carry out to the car while the guy I was working with was carrying everything else.  I was already holding baby A2.  I didn't notice anything at all until I set the flowers on the ground and got baby A2 buckled in his car seat.  Then sudden cramping, ripping sensation, gush of blood.

I'm bleeding quite a bit today.  Pretty severe cramping.  This is the ...fourth? fifth?  round of this kind of bleeding.


I'd like to curl up in a fetal position in a dark room and stay there.  But it's 79 and sunny ...and the baby that IS here and somehow managed to survive the uterus of doom loves the outside.  So it's outside I go.

I can't for the life of me see this ending well.

2 comments:

strongblonde said...

i'm so dumb. but isn't there some kind of treatment? are you just supposed to "deal" with this. or is BR the treatment? it totally sucks.

but. for the record. you DO have what it takes. you're so strong. much stronger than you give yourself credit for!!

xx

Searching for Serenity said...

In all my reading and even discussions with my doctors, SCH happens often and most women carry a healthy baby to term.

I hope this for you.

Hang in there.